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a long time ago in a thread far far away......


due to a series of events in my life, i retired from gaming a while ago

im sure youre all still dying to know what the explanation is.... maybe... i dunno...



anyway....

a short time before i left, i was having problems in my relationship...
long story short, my gf of 2 years and 5 months left me on our anniversary for a guy she had known about 2 weeks. less than 2 weeks after that she jumped into bed with the guy and gave him her virginity after promising we would lose it to each other, because she was naive and stupid enuff to fall for everything he did.

yes u heard me right i m a virgin and not afraid to admit it, and im VERY glad i didnt lose it to her and you will see why...

obviously this screwed me up very badly, and for a while, i didnt care about anything, and i came closer to suicide than i ever have before.

i found out that she didnt give a frak about me and that she had been cheating over and over and in general "spreading" for random guys and getting drunk and in general being a slu*

this of course shocked and changed me, and alot of things have happened over the last 3 months

needless to say the last 3 months have been the longest, hardest and most painful in my life, and as i said i came damn close to ending my life.

somehow i muddled through with the help of some friends, and family

and knowing wat she had been up to behind my back helped in a strange way.

and theres alot more to say to try and explain it but its not really possible without a very long post here, and its not really explainable unless uve been spending time with me over the last few months, but suffice it to say she betrayed me in the worst possible way, broke my heart and screwed me up bad, which i still am.

i m alot better than i was before, but of course i will never be the same man i was.

so, now im a bit better, and ready to cum back to gaming

i originally thot that the gaming, and a cpl other things had driven her to make the choices she made, but i realized that it wasnt my fault, it was hers, she made the choices and she has to live with the consequences... i do not...

plus ive met up with an old female friend, which in the future may turn into sumthing[:)], but for now i m single, in order to do sum thinking, relaxing, vacationing, soul searching, and to do sum damage control before i m ready for another relationship, and of course, to try and mend wat if left of my broken heart

plus then on top of that i had a massive virus invasion, which forced me to wipe the hard drive, and start fresh, which is essentially copmplete...

long story short, the slu& can die a slow and painful death and burn in hell for all eternity[:)]

BTW, does any1 have a punching bag or sumthing that i can take sum rage out on?.......

so...


life goes on....

Stay tuned for Episode 6, in which Marky gets his oats.

What'd you say?...Marky sowing oats?!?![:D]

Sorry, way to much information for me.[:-]

LOL! You have learned a harsh lesson in life - all women are just snakes with tits!![:D]

I have to say what does all this have to do with UV or WiTP were it is even longer ?

Marky,

A strange story with a moral for you (perhaps a bit late).

In one of the most expensive areas of Philadelphia, a famous
dog breeder was bringing up his treasured poodle.[:)] The house
was a $2 million townhouse, nice digs![:D] The poodle was very happy,
great food, lots of attention, huge doghouse in the backyard - the works[8D].
And it kept on winning award after award[:'(] It had the perfect shape - all
body parts were in perfect simetry and balance. But alas one day, our pooch
was overwhelmed by confusion or at least ennui.[:(]What was beyond the
fence?[&:] The pooch was intrigued by the idea and annoyed that it was not
free to explore[8|]. And this period of unease continued. Finally one day, a huge
stroke of luck! A storm had led to a small hole under the fence[:D]So our industrious
pooch ran free and wild[8D]. Well for a couple of hours - it was summer and the sun
was hot and our pooch became tired and drowsy[>:] So he napped. However, our
pampered pooch was no rocket scientist and picked the wrong place[:-] He lay on
the trolley train tracks and sure enough one was barelling down on our befuddled
poodle. Just in the nick of time pooch woke up from his cat nap.[>:] He jumped out of the way with no time to spare - but.....A little bit of his tail was torn away.[X(] He went off to the sidewalk and cried (well whined) for an hour. He was bloody, muddy and tired.
[:@] And now, with a shortened tail, no way could he be a tournament winner ever again.[8|] So pooch dediced on a course of action so dramatic my heart shudders at its memory[&:] Pooch went out to the trolley tracks and stuck his neck over into the middle. Pooch would go out in a blaze of gory![:o] And so it was, the next trolley car beared down, but pooch did not move. As the trolley car got agonizingly close to pooch, pooch put his championship training and poise to use and did not flinch [X(] Yes, pooch was decapitated[&o][&o]

This leaves us to find a moral for this tale (bad pun again, sorry).

Do not lose your head over a little bit of tail.

I know she ripped your guts out...But no chick is worth offing yourself for. Trust me,
I am an old pro at getting rejected! And as cold as it sounds
1. There are tons of fish in the sea.
2. Well she turned out not to be such a good catch, maybe it is for the best that
you not end up with such a horrid chick.
3. Next time you play somebody at UV, just imagine she is the commander for the other
side, that should give you enough reason to rip them to shreds.
4. Now for the hard part. Get on with your life. You are young, there is plently more
chance. So don`t get all whiny. You said your piece, now let go.

PS I was in a rush and I messed up spelling symmetry

Forgive me.

1) Never be sorry for being a virgin, especially nowadays. It will pay dividends [:)]
2) Think. Your relationship with her wasn't meant to happen anyway.
3) Something better will show up, and maybe it has already.
4) When you meet the right girl you will really, really know it.
5) When you are in turmoil computer games help take your mind off the sh!# for a while.

Brad